Enjoy Life

I was accident on last thursday when I am on the way to KL, cause need to meet a customer there so I need to drive there. It's quite heavy rain on that day so I drive very slow that I never do it in my life. Suddenly I feel like something pull my car and keep moving to left, then I step on break try to turn it to right, but my car still keep move to left side. And after few seconds my car can move right that time, I try to catch it back to left and still step on break, but still can feel there got something to pull my car to right side and want me to hit something. Finally I got hit on the tree and car gone cannot drive at all, but lucky is i am still alive, cause when i see the tree in front of me I thought this time I will die already, but really lucky just car damage and me just get scratch a bit, but whole body pain. I thought my car got V6 engine can be heavy enough, got 17" sport rim with eagle F1 tyre can be the most stable in rainy day and ABS got enough power to stop my car when I emergency break. All useless if the god point on you and want you to hit, what you have also must get hurt or die.

P/S : Sorry Joey cause you call me on Sunday and I can't talk too much with you cause that time I'm still on the bed and also very tired body also very pain.

Finally I send the mail to reject the Intel project, but let the engineer to scold me stupid. Actually it's hard to get in Intel customer or vendor list, and my own company was successful to get in the list and the percentage to get the project is very high, the engineer told me just now is more than 90% I can get the project and i give up on it, so he keep scold me stupid till i back to office he also call and mail me to say me stupid. :) My japanese course will finish on this wednesday, so the resignation letter also sent. But both of my boss also call me to ask me stay back, and I just gave them an answer " we discuss after 1 month ". So nice that I can take a good rest after 1 month, but still need to headache for 1 more month also.

Got nothing to think now, so I also don't know what to type here.................... Stop here.

This is the 1st time I can feel about it "Suddenly Feel Bored With My Life". I never feel it before, and really don't know why feel so. But I know that I feel very hard in this moment, harder till breathing also a problem. Really wish to put all thing a side, and I was finish my resign letter for my full time jobs, and a letter to reject the Intel project, may be will send it on next week after my japanese course. Feel like want to be alone without any friend and job, feel like want to hide in some where that nobody can find me and to let me rest. Normally when I am down, I'll go to Mirc for chat, play games or drive my car to round the whole Penang. But now all I also tried, it's still the same.

Got no energy now, even want to drive back home also lazy, but I still need to back home because I got japanese class later. Wish to give up now, so I can go home and lay on my bed always, but can I choose the way I want? I want to be the useless ppl in the world now, just to do some simple thing and pass my time with no pressure and nothing to think.

Suddenly want to listen this chinese song "shu le ni ying le shi jie you ru he". Feel this song also suitable for me now. :) Well, need to stop here already, I got class at 7.30pm later. Wish you all have a meaningful life to enjoy.

There are few months I never update my blog already. But don't know why suddenly feel like want to update it today. Feel very tired for me, really wish that I could put all my job a side and go for a rest, cause work so many years already.But there are still got a lot of ppl work more long time than me, may be I am not strong enough like them.

I come out to work for part time worker when I was 15 years old. That time I'm very young so I can work for 16 hours a day when I got no clacc, but if I got class then I will work for 8 hours a day. Start from that time I never get even 1 cent from my parent already, cause they also never give me even 1 cent after I work. I work hard to spend all money for myself. Untill I'm 19 years old, I feel that I'm carry a heavy beg, that's because I was study in college. The study time is long cause I wish I can graduate earlier so I study 2 times of others student, so I can graduate 50% earlier than all student, so I only use near to 1 and the half year to graduate my Diploma already and others need 3 years and 4 months. Because of I want to finish my course earlier so I study for full day even saturday and sunday also study for extra programming, so I can work very long hour already, and the income also less already. When need to pay for the course feel that time I'll headache already, because after pay it I left not more that RM 80 for me to spend for the whole month, but also need to do it, so eat the cheaper thing (BREAD). When in college life I just sleep 4 hours a day or less, but that time more strong, may be sleep too much can make ppl weak. hehe ...... I remember when I was last year in college, I got betting football, but just small bet for fun only. From there I got win a lot and wanna pay for the course fee also dont need to scared get hungry later or eat bread again. But the money easy come also easy go. Till 1 day, my mom know that I was betting football outside and won a lot, so she come to ask me can borrow her some money or not, because my father that KELAPA SAWIT farm in Johor Kluang want to cut all and need money to do all thing there. I know cause my father he lose a lot of share that time, that's why only ask me to borrow them money. I never say no to them cause they never give me money since I was 15 years old, and I go to my room and take all the money to my mom and said ' I only got all of this, if still need more I try to think for you again'. There got more than 100K after she count it, and she said it's more than enough. After that I no more betting already, and also will worried after pay the course fee again. :)

After my course I just work in the home equipment company and salary RM 750.00 only. But to get experience RM 750 is enough for me already. Actually I wish to continue my course further, but no money for me to go on, so come out to work better. And I work for that company 6 months then I change job already. Very lucky for me cause can work to based in Penang Intel and travel to oversea to training. But the job very easy and freedom so till now I still work in that company. Because of the company got nothing for me to do, so I find a lot of part time job to do. Finally I got this new job, but this new job need to work a lot and no body to help me. I need to do Application, Sales, Service, Presentation, Research, Test and a lot ................ Now got 27 factories project on hand already and 1 project only need to do the 5 step of it 27 projects I need to do for 135 step, and all of this not only 1 day can finish it. 1 month before, I set up for my own home base company, cause Intel got project for me ask me to follow up, till now I still follow up the project. Suddenly my friend come to ask me to share with them about their glass painting business, then I join them do to it already. Then my sister ask me to share with her again to open a shop, I never say no them take out the money and join in already. Now i got total 28 project on hand and 1 is my own business, need to do marketing or sales in the business that i share with my friend, need to buy new stock and take care of shop when I'm free in the business that I share with my sister, need to go for marketing and sales in other 6 part time company. wah............ tired of it.

In love ........ don't need to say la ....... cause always fail. In work so many thing to do. I am now thinking if I can put all my job a side I wish I can go oversea to rest a while. Really wish can same as my blog title Enjoy Life. This 2 days can't sleep will, keep thinking how to drop all my job or business a side and let myself to have a rest. Can feel that now the beg is more heavy than last time. Actually the feeling now is very very hard, but still need to go on. If one day I stop breathing I dunno what will happen anymore, then I am sure that I got no pressure anymore.

I got spend a lot of money in 2 days, that is yesterday and today. Because today is my gf birthday in chinese date and also 2 years anniversary with her so I got spend 1/4 of my salary to buy her present and she feel very happy when I give her the 2 things ....... erm........ I buy her a new model swatch watch that advertise in magazine and TV and also a heart shape platinium with 18 small diamonds .......

After about 30 minutes she told me, her birthday in english date and valentine's day is coming soon then asked me what thing I gonna to buy for her. And I just tell her I only buy something for her when valentine's day, so about the coming birthday I think I won't buy her anything already, but she still want me to buy something for her .......

So if you are girl are you still going to ask your bf to buy you something ?

This is special for munmun 1 because she was happy like hell. And why she so happy? hehe she told me she got pass her test, so I use this small place to say congratulation to her and also wish her all the best in other thing. Everybody let's cheer to munmun.

夜晚; 是烦恼的结束, 早晨; 是美好的开始, 晴天; 给你所有快乐, 雨天; 冲走所有忧伤, 不论晴天雨天, 不论早晨夜晚, 我的祝福都会常陪在你們的左右!!!

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